Court's Inspo:)

Here I am laying in my bed listening to the crickets outside and I don't know why but the thought of you came across me. I was just thinking about how hard I fell in love with you. I fell in love with you so much that I literally went insane at one point. And through all this I just keep thinking "why him". And I swear I don't know what it was about you but as soon as I saw you for the first time I felt like I found you. And I just looked at you and I felt like I knew you forever but yet I didn't even know your name at the time. I just keep on picturing that moment in my head when we first looked at each other. I just remember you smiling at me and I swear your smile is the most amazing smile I've ever seen. I don't know how I'm even still here loving you just as much as I do, but I swear my love for you is infinite. It never dies and it's so strong that it even overwhelms me. It's crazy that I haven't even seen you in almost a year and I&

A philosophy that really helps in everyday life is when you realize that life is too short and that you should just live. We only get one life and one opportunity at it so therefore you should live everyday like you would die tomorrow. You never want to say, "oh I wish I could have done this", or "oh I regret that". You know what just live your damn life and everyone makes mistakes and it's okay to make mistakes. Be dumb sometimes, go do something crazy, go travel to that place. Life is too short to not do things because of fear, regret, or other reasons. Just go do it if you want to do it. Like yeah I've done some stupid shit and do I regret it? Nope because it was a fun time and I learned something from it. I will say through don't be so stupid that you put your life at risk. But just live man and just see what it feels like to be totally aligned with yourself. Take risks because sometimes you just gotta take a risk to get a reward. And also take

I just got broken up with two days ago and it has really made me realize how fast everything can change. I read this thing that said, "I think the hardest part of losing someone isn't having to say goodbye, but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill to void, the emptiness that's left inside your heart when they go". This quote really hit me because that really was the hardest part. While I am adjusting to the breakup and I am not feeling too in the blue about it it is really hard still. It's the things that I used to do that I can't do anymore. It was the goodnight texts, and the nights spent cuddling in bed. And it was all of the laughs we shared together and everything. And while I didn't go super deep into the relationship that me and him had, it is still hard seeing it all end. I am feeling quite normal about the breakup, I'm not really sad. But it's more so that I feel a little more empty. And I think that empty space